93. What is your lucky number, and why is it so lucky?

I have two lucky numbers, 3 and 87 both are jersey numbers to my two favorite hockey players. Number 3 is my favorite college hockey player's number and 87 is of course Sidney Crosby's number. My very first NHL game I watched was the Winter Classic between Pittsburgh and Buffalo. Crosby wears 87 because he was born on August 7, 1987 and I was born on August 7, 1993. It's a special number to me for that reason. Even though college hockey players don't get to choose what number they wear, number 3 is still a lucky number for me.  I've gotten to know the player who wears it a tiny bit and always watch him when he is out on the ice. Once he goes pro I will for sure keep tabs on him and his new jersey number.

I do believe in luck just like I believe in fate and when I find a four leaf clover I try to keep it intact or put it in one of my frisbee cleat when I play so I'll have a good game.

I HAVE A TUMBLR ACCOUNT!!!

http://dreamer2087.tumblr.com/

54. What effect does music have on you?

Music has a huge effect on me in so many ways. Whatever mood I am in I always find a song or songs to fit my mood. When I'm happy I will listen to a lot of rock, pop or U93 the local radio station that plays the top hits. When I'm sad I listen to a lot of John Mayer, Maroon 5, or a mix of sad songs that I have. When I'm angry I listen to a lot of loud music. On my way to Ultimate Frisbee I listen to a mix I made of songs to get me pumped up for the games that night. My life has been a bit rough in the last few months so there are a lot of songs that I can't listen to because they remind me of what has happened or they remind me of people. When I'm driving my convertible I love to turn the music up and just drive not having a care in the world if people stare at me. To me, driving and listening to loud music is like therapy and I can forget about a lot of stuff.  I've never been one for country music but I love Knee Deep by Zac Brown Band and I Want Crazy by Hunter Hays. Knee Deep is one of those songs that make me feel better and I don't have to have a care in the world sometimes.

Right now I've been listening to both Mumford & Sons albums, The 20/20 Experience by Justin Timberlake, Pompeii by Bastille, Say Something by A Great Big World, and my two favorite songs Love Don't Die by The Fray and How I Feel by Flo Rida.

I start Ultimate Frisbee this week so my pump up mix will be playing a lot.
Here is the mix:
Throwdown- Pillar
Smack Down- Thousand Foot Krutch
Bleed It Out- Linkin Park
Play Hard- David Guetta
Let It Rock- Kevin Rudolf
Remember the Name- Fort Minor
Not Afraid- Eminem
For The Love of The Game- Pillar
Headstrong- Trapt
Someday- Flipsyde
Light Up the Sky- Thousand Foot Krutch
The Pretender- Foo Fighters (my favorite song)
Eye of The Tiger- Survivor
Fire It Up- TFK
Not Without A Fight- Pillar
Know Your Enemy- Green Day

Music means a lot to me and it has the ability to get me through almost everything.

Love Don't Die music video!

25. Describe a time you felt alone

As I sit in my bed with the rain falling outside I am in tears. I don't exactly know why but I think I know part of the reason. I had an awesome day helping out at an Ultimate Frisbee tournament taping people's injuries, helping set up and take down the fields, and taking in the action. Late in the day I got cold and a friend of my gave me his jacket which was really warm. When I got home I yelled at my dad for always being in a shitty mood and being disrespectful. I don't regret half the stuff I say and forgiveness doesn't come easily unless I have known you for a long time or embraced you as a friend early on.
So why I feel alone. Going to be straight up honest here: I have no friends my own age, I don't know why I'm still in college, I don't know why I'm still in this town, I don't know what I want in life and I have a crush on a guy who doesn't even know my name. All I do know is that music, hockey, writing, and Ultimate Frisbee players are my only comforts in life. I do realize there are probably people who have had similar problems and I want to know how they go through. I have trust issues with people partly because I have a fear of getting hurt like I did in middle school ( I was bullied at bit).
 All I want is to be happy and if that means changing who I am and forgetting about certain people in my life so be it. If I had a job and the money I would leave home and begin a new life where no one knew me. There are things that would  be unfinished and left unsaid but isn't that part of life? Before I'd leave I would tell that one person I love that I love them even if they don't love me back, That's one thing that would not go unsaid.
So I guess you could say I've been alone for sometime now. I'm not depressed, I do have moments  of happiness like I did today but they don't come that often. I'd be happy if I could live the life I dream of: being free and on my own in a city where no one knows me or my past. When I think about this there are two songs that come to mind, Boston by Augustana and The Reckless and The Brave by All Time Low. If you've heard either of these songs you understand why they fit my situation.
I realized I used to word know a lot. ha

80. Thunderstorms… Inspiring or scary?

When I was a little kid I was deathly afraid of thunderstorms. I would hide under my blankets and plug my ears so I wouldn't hear the thunder. I don't remember how old I was but there was a tornado warning for the town I live in and I went to the basement with my dad and the dogs. My mom didn't think it was that big of a deal and stayed upstairs. The power flickered but didn't go out and I peaked at the window across from the basement door and it was a mess outside. Once the storm passed we came upstairs and looked out at the backyard. The yard was a mess and branches and leaves were everywhere. We turned on the news and found out that there was indeed a tornado but it had missed our street and hit the next one a few miles away. The next morning we surveyed the damage and found a trees and been knocked down and the area by the lake was a mess of branches. My dad also found a few of the shingles that had been ripped off the house. That experience made me more afraid of thunderstorms but I was just thankful to be alive.

I think I was about 15 or 16 when there was another bad thunderstorm. There wasn't a tornado but this time the power did go out. My mom and I stayed at my grandpa's house as I was making my Profession of Faith in church that Sunday. Eventually the power got restored and we went back home. There was a lot of damage around the city and trees were blocking some of the roads. I even saw a tree that had landed on a house. Back at home there wasn't much damage except for a tree that fell on our driveway.

When I was little I was afraid of thunderstorms but as I got older that fear lessened. Now I sit outside and watch the lightning if the storm isn't bad. If there is a severe thunderstorm in the middle of the night I will turn of the TV to make sure there isn't a tornado warning and keep it on until the storm is gone. As a little kid thunderstorms were scary but now they are inspiring. Thunderstorms and tornadoes are the raw power of nature and even though we are tempted to watch them it's better to stay safe.

72. If you had only one wish, what would you wish for?

If I had one wish I would wish to be happy. The last time I was truly happy was when I was at a Notre Dame hockey game. It was the championship game of the CCHA and I was down at the glass watching the players skate around. My favorite player noticed me and my heart skipped a beat. It wasn't a home game so I was a bit surprised he had seen me. Being at the hockey games is the only time I feel happy. Being surrounded by hockey fans is a gift and I don't feel ashamed at yelling at the players or officials. After a weekend of games, Sunday morning my voice is usually hoarse from yelling and cheering. I'm not exactly sure why hockey makes me happy but I think part of it is being around the players. Twice during the season there were skates with them after a game and I went and skated with them. I think another reason why hockey makes me happy is the atmosphere of Notre Dame. Everyone is so friendly and there is so much that the team does to give back to the community like the skates, teddy bear toss, and jersey auctions to raise money. I feel home when I go to the Compton Family Ice Arena and that's what makes me happy.

I wish to be happy because I'm usually stressed or upset about something. I feel like something is missing from my life but I can't figure out what it is.

I know this is a short post and I haven't posted in a LONG time but I promise to write more now that I'm done with school.

my song :)

2. What 5 websites do you visit often, and why?

So I'm a huge sports fan and the only channels my TV sees are the ESPN channels, NBC Sports Network and the NHL Network. It's no question that the websites I visit are the same way. In no particular order these are the five websites I visit often.

ESPN.com: What's not to love about this website?! It's got everything I need for all the sports I love and it keeps me up to date with everything. I usually visit for breaking news, rumors, and highlights of soccer matches.

NHL.com: I'm a hockey fan more than any other sport and I visit this website everyday. I get my latest news and highlights of all the games. The lockout was one of the most frustrating things for a hockey fan and I was about ready to give up hope that there was going to be a season.

penguins.nhl.com: The website of the Pittsburgh Penguins. It gives me all the latest news about the team and I love reading the Penguins Report on game day. One of the features I love about this website is all the inside content about the team everything from game highlights to interviews and the excellent behind the scenes video series called Inside The Room. It's basically my stop for all things Penguins related. :)

und.com/sports/m-hockey: The website for all things Notre Dame Hockey. One of the things I love about this site is the the reports for the weekend games. It gets me ready by giving all the stats and what to expect from the other team. I also love reading the articles about the team and watching the videos of the highlights. Since I have season tickets I know all the players by number and I really just love watching the action.

MSN.foxsports.com: I don't visit this website as often as I do the other ones but still it gives me the info on what I'm looking for. I go here for tennis info and updates on Rafael Nadal, my favorite tennis player. This is also my favorite website for all things soccer related. I bounce from here to ESPN for soccer but I like this site better. I love the English Premier League but my favorite team is Barcelona. Yes of course I love Messi!

I visit more websites that these five including youtube, MLSsoccer and theahl.com.

I think I am a bit obsessed with sports and I'm not your typical girl who likes all the celebrity stuff and fashion. I'm an athlete of a sport that many people don't know about yet but it is gaining popularity. I play Ultimate Frisbee and I love it. I've been around sports all my life. My grandpa is a big Michigan fan and I grew up watching NASCAR because my dad and brother would watch it. My love of hockey started when I was a little kid watching the Mighty Ducks movies. :)

79. Describe your first car

Days before I started college I got my licence. I'm embarrassed to say this but I failed my drivers test twice and on the third try I passed. I actually got my car before I got my licence. My dad and I were driving up to Watervliet, Michigan so I could practice on a driving course up there. I saw the car on the way up there and on the way back my dad pulled over so I could take a look. The car was a 1994 Mustang convertible and it looked like it was in good condition. I put the two phone numbers into my phone and when we go home we called the people up. They gave us more information and we put an offer in. There was already another offer on it and the guy was getting his financial information together. We went back a few days later and took it for a test drive and it drove great. A few days after that we got the call that the other guy didn't get his financial information together so we got the car for $4,000. I was quite happy that we got it because my dream car has always been a Mustang.  The money came from my grandma who had gave my parents money for school or anything and they used it to buy my car. After I got my licence I drove the Mustang with the roof down to school with my music blaring. I looked like a bad ass teenage with my sunglasses on and my music blaring. :)  I had started school on a Thursday so I drove it Friday and to church on Sunday.

On the way to church I noticed my speedometer had stopped working and I freaked out. My dad was right behind me in his truck so we switched cars and he drove the Mustang the rest of the way. The problem ended up being something to do with a box in the trunk and my dad was able to order a new one.  Another problem that my car was having was whenever I would turn the wheel while the car was in park the front would be very squeaky. We took the car in and it was something to do with the rod in front and one of the bearings by the wheel. The car also needed new tires and the total bill for everything was over $1,000. After all the work that was done on my car it now runs perfectly fine. 

I take really good care of my car and I wash it often keeping it nice and shiny. It usually takes me two hours to wash, wax, clean the tires and wheels, and do the interior. I always ride with the roof down as I enjoy the thrill of the wind in my hair. I can't drive it in the winter because it's a convertible and it doesn't ride well on snow covered roads. It only holds ten gallons of gas so I have to fill it up every week and a half.  I have really sharp eyes and if it wasn't for me seeing the car on the side of the road I wouldn't have my own car today. 

Here is a picture of it. I've never seen a Mustang this color but I have see some with white roofs like mine has.  

It's not even close to my dream Mustang which is this one but I'm still happy. 

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry that I haven't posted in a while. I've been so busy with school and I couldn't find time to write much. I finished my first semester of college and I passed all of my classes. I start my spring semester next Thursday. I know it's weird that I go back on a Thursday and yes of course I hate that. To be honest, I haven't been that happy recently and I don't know why. The only places that I am happy are the Ultimate Frisbee field and at ND hockey games. I'm not depressed just a bit confused and unhappy that's all. I promise to start writing more and do at least two blog posts a week. This coming semester I will be taking my laptop with me to school so hopefully I can find time to write in between my classes. So stay tuned for more blog posts in the near future!

37. Daily Routine

As a student I don't have class at the same time every weekday. Tuesday and Thursday I have class at 9 a.m. and Monday, Wednesday, and Friday I don't have class until 12:00 p.m. So this blog is about my morning routine on my noon class days from last semester.

I usually wake up around 8:30 and I go downstairs phone in hand and let my dog out of his cage. My dad is the first one to leave the house and he locks my dog in a cage. If my dog is ever left downstairs by himself, he gets into everything. After I let him out I sit on the couch and flip on the TV to ESPN and watch SportsCenter until 10. Then I go upstairs and get ready for school. I go  through my closet and try to find something fashionable depending on what the weather is like. Next I head to the bathroom and I brush my hair, put my makeup on if I feel like wearing any, brush my teeth and use mouthwash then it's back downstairs for some breakfast/lunch. I usually eat whatever is in the fridge or a bowl of cereal. The last few days I've been eating waffles and bagels. I let the dogs outside for a few minutes and then I let them back in and I grab my coat, keys, purse, and backpack and I'm out the door. Depending on the route I take to school it usually takes me 25 minutes to get there.

Currently one of the most played songs in my car. It's on repeat a lot too.

40. What is your favorite season, and why?

My favorite season is Winter because I love the snow and it's hockey season. I also love to watch snowboarding and watching Shaun White tear up the half-pipe. I love the snow falling and being inside drinking hot chocolate and watching hockey games. This winter will be my first winter driving so I hope that nothing happens. Another reason why I like winter is I enjoy being able to dress in sweaters and wear booties around campus. I'm not a hot weather fan so that's probably why I like Winter but it's mostly because of hockey and the snow. My dad and I are planning to build a rink since the lake in the backyard dried up because we had very little rain this year. I'm really excited to be doing that and it reminds me of when the players used to skate on ponds or rinks their parents built them like Gretzky's parents did for him. As I was driving in my car the other day I heard Christmas music and was like it's way too early for this stuff! I'm slowly getting into Christmas music but not that much. I bought my most favorite Christmas album last year which is Christmas by Michael Bublé. Words can't even begin to describe how amazing that album is so you just have to go check it out for yourself. :) As it begins to get colder here in Michigan I'm adjusting to the colder nights by putting a heavier comforter on my bed and dressing in my winter clothes. It's not quite winter here yet and we haven't seen snow yet but I'm ready for it when it comes and I will embrace it, not shut myself inside. Most of all I love just being warm and enjoying what I love best in the Winter which is the sports, Christmas music, hot chocolate and dressing warm.

I'm not going to give you a Christmas song yet but this one is one of my favorites right now.
I always turn this song up whenever it comes on!

30. What is the one thing you cannot live without?

I can't live without my iPod. That iPod goes everywhere with me and my music library is constantly  expanding. I recently became a member of Spotify and I'm in love with it. I've listened to many songs that my Facebook friends have been listening to and discovered lots of new music. I got my iPod about 4 years ago from my brother who got a new one. A year or two ago I had to get my iPod fixed because it wouldn't sync any music at all. I refused to buy a new one because my iPod is a 30 gig and I knew I wouldn't need a bigger one. I can't live without it because music gets me through everything and I have so many songs that speak to me. My iTunes library right now is at 2,159 songs in tons of different genres anything from classical to metal.  Now that I have a car I don't use my iPod that much but I do us it for running, mowing the lawn, and when I'm in my room working on my homework. I don't discover much music on iTunes but I download a majority of songs from it. The music I discover comes from Pandora, Spotify, and the radio. I create a lot of my playlists on my iPod and then I tweak them in iTunes. Those playlists end up being made into CD's that go into my car. When I get the money I want to get my car wired so I can play my ipod because seriously who uses CD's anymore?  OK I admit I still buy CD's but only to my favorite artists. The last two CD's I bought were Vital by Anberlin and Phoenix by The Classic Crime. Both are amazing CD's and I encourage you to check them out. My iPod is something I can't go without and I would be devastated if something ever happened to it. Music is my life sometimes and songs just speak to me because they actually get what I'm going through at a particular time. Music has a way of expressing what we can't say in our own words, it takes lyrics to a song to say "Yeah that's exactly how I feel." Even though my iPod is a bit beat up I wouldn't and couldn't ever go without out it.
This is one of my favorite songs right now. :)  "Now don't you understand that I'm never changing who I am"

I'm starting at new blog. It's a collection of journal topics I found on StumbleUpon. The original post was written by Thomas Slatin and can be found here: http://www.tomslatin.com/130-journal-writing-prompts/ Whenever I get time I will write a new post. I will also include a song or two about what I am listening to since I love music so much. My first post will be all the journal topics so people can see which one I pick. Not all of them I can write about since some of them don't apply to me at the time. :)

1. Name something you lost or gave away that can never be replaced.
2. What 5 websites do you visit often, and why?
3. Name a totally useless possession and how you came to acquire it.
4. What music album would be used for a movie about your life?
5. List your bad habits and/or addictions and what you have tried to rid yourself of them.
6. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be, and what would you do if later on you changed your mind?
7. What are your religious beliefs? Have they changed, or have they always stayed the same?
8. When was your last food craving, and what did you crave?
9. Who was your first crush and what made them special?
10. Name your most cherished childhood memory.
11. Turn to an entry in your journal or diary from a year or more ago. What has changed and what has stayed the same since then?
12. What is one thing nobody knows about you because nobody ever cared to ask?
13. Robert Frost write a poem titled The Road Not Taken. Name a road you’ve always wanted to travel. Where do you hope it takes you, and what might you see on the way?
14. Name one thing you always wanted to do, but haven’t. What has prevented you from doing it?
15. Write about your first kiss. Was it everything you wished or hoped it would be?
16. What was the worst mistake or decision you have ever made in life? What could you have done differently?
17. What song was stuck in your head recently, and what were you doing at the time that made you think of it?
18. Describe 5 things you want to see or do before it’s too late.
19. Write about something you now know that you wish you knew earlier in life. How could this knowledge have helped you?
20. Write about your greatest fear.
21. Name one thing you feel brings out the good in people.
22. Describe a time in your life when everything turned out fine, despite the odds.
23. If you invented a device that could fix one problem you are facing right now, would you use it? What problem would you like to solve?
24. Write about the last time you spoke to your best friend. What did you talk about?
25. Describe a time you felt alone.
26. Name something you found; what was it and where did you find it?
27. What’s on your calendar for tomorrow?
28. What is the most annoying sound you have ever heard?
29. Describe your first job.
30. What is the one thing you cannot live without?
31. Quote the nicest thing anyone has ever said about you.
32. Are you afraid of the dark? Why or why not?
33. Describe the longest amount of time you have ever been away from home.
34. Write about a recent adventure or travels.
35. Who did you idolize growing up?
36. Name a celebrity or famous person you wish would take you out on a date.
37. Describe your daily routine when you get out of bed in the morning.
38. What was the longest amount of time you have spent waiting on line for something? What was it, and was it worth the wait?
39. Name one thing you have always been good at doing.
40. What is your favorite season, and why?
41. What was the title of the last book you read?
42. List your biggest regrets.
43. Have you ever seen a ghost?
44. Describe your note-taking style and habits.
45. Do you believe that we are all here for a reason? What might the reason be?
46. What comes to mind when someone uses the phrase prolonging the magic?
47. Have you ever done something just to feel the danger, or to feel alive?
48. What is your favorite cliché?
49. What are all your thoughts on god?
50. How do rainy days make you feel?
51. What is the most amount of money you have had at one time?
52. Write a celebrity crush list.
53. What is the most amazing thing you have ever seen, heard, or experienced?
54. What effect does music have on you?
55. What did you learn today? What did you learn yesterday?
56. What 5 traits do people first notice when they meet you for the first time?
57. Have you ever carved your name or initials into a tree or stone?
58. Democracy, communism, or socialism? Defend your choice.
59. Does Never Never Land really exist?
60. Where is a great place to get breakfast?
61. List 3 things that went right (or wrong) today.
62. What is the best method of travel, and in what ways have you traveled?
63. If you could give the world just one thing, what would it be?
64. What were your best and worst subjects in school or college?
65. Describe the most outrageous thing anyone has dared you to do.
66. Ice cream: chocolate, vanilla, or strawberry?
67. What historical events happened the year you were born?
68. Pick up a random object that has special meaning to you and describe it in as much detail as possible.
69. Write about a recent visit to a museum or art gallery.
70. What food items do you consider staples in a well-balanced diet?
71. Describe your feelings in regards to an issue in todays society, and what would be done to fix it.
72. If you had only one wish, what would you wish for?
73. If you could tell the world just one thing, what would you say?
74. Share a dirty little secret about yourself (or someone else).
75. Name a time when you broke a rule or law. Did you get caught, or did you get away with it?
76. Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
77. Name something you would like to devote more time to seeing or doing.
78. What is the name of your favorite book, magazine, or publication?
79. Describe your first car.
80. Thunderstorms… Inspiring or scary?
81. Name one thing that has always fascinated you.
82. What is the most valuable item or largest sum of money you have ever found?
83. Name one thing in your life you hope you never have to see or encounter.
84. Growing up, what career goals or dreams of accomplishments did you have? Did any of them come to be, how many did you abandon or revise along the way?
85. Write about a time in your life when things weren’t the way you or others thought they should be.
86. Describe an odd or unusual writing habit or ritual you or someone you know has. 
87. Can a book really be judged by its cover? Explain in as much detail as possible why or why not.
88. Describe a moment in your life you laughed so hard you cried, had a drink come out your nose, or peed in your pants.
89. Detail the greatest prank you have ever pulled off successfully.
90. What musical medium did you grow up with; vinyl records, CD’s, or MP3′s?
91. How long was your longest inter-personal relationship? Was it friendship, family, romantic, or something else?
92. What is your biggest ambition in life?
93. What is your lucky number, and why is it so lucky?
94. How long have you been able to live off the grid? No e-mail, Internet, electricity, running water, etc.
95. What is your favorite chess piece?
96. Do you have a daily or weekly routine that you follow?
97. What is the worst event in history to have ever taken place, in your opinion? Could something like this possibly happen again?
98. How would you classify your ideal living or working situation?
99. Who in your life has been the best positive influence on your life?
100. What things do you enjoy most in your life?
101. Is there anything you, ‘just know’ and have no explainable or rational way to explain how you know it?
102. What was the most intamite or personal question you have ever asked someone, or have been asked of you?
103. What Lo-Fi or non-electronic / old-school things from the past do you still enjoy?
104. Describe your first intamite experience.
105. If you could start your life over from birth, what is the one thing you would change about yourself?
106. Have you ever wanted to trade places with someone else for a day, week, or a lifetime? If so, who was it and why?
107. Name something you’ve always wanted that you will never ever have.
108. Describe a time in your life when you were lost (figuratively or not).
109. Do you believe the end of the world will come to pass during your lifetime?
110. If you could choose to believe in Science or religion, which would you choose and why?
111. Is there ever justification for revenge? What things in your life have made you vengeful?
112. Have you ever risked your life to save the life of someone else? Would you if the situation arose?
113. What is your biggest insecurity?
114. In your own opinion, what is the greatest downfall of modern society.
115. How long have you gone without something necessary to your survival (food, shelter, water, sleep, or clothing)?
116. Assuming you’ve lost your virginity, at what age did you lose it?
117. Are you or someone else the black sheep of the family?
118. Is beauty skin deep or does it come from somewhere else?
119. How good are you at keeping secrets? Spill 5 closely-guarded secrets.
120. Did you ever have your own ‘special place’ as a child?
121. What are your beliefs in regards to cosmetic or plastic surgery?
122. Do you believe in reincarnation?
123. Have you ever been homeless, or had no place to call your home?
124. Has anyone (besides yourself) ever read your journal, either with or without your permission?
125. What rumor(s) were spread about you? Were any of them true?
126. What are the best and worst memories of childhood?
127. Have you ever had a crush on an authority figure (i.e. boss, teacher, etc.).
128. Have you ever felt as if you were a failure or somehow ‘failed’ someone you care about?
129. Do you have any irrational fears?
130. Describe your relationships with your family/friends/parents/significant other.