93. What is your lucky number, and why is it so lucky?

I have two lucky numbers, 3 and 87 both are jersey numbers to my two favorite hockey players. Number 3 is my favorite college hockey player's number and 87 is of course Sidney Crosby's number. My very first NHL game I watched was the Winter Classic between Pittsburgh and Buffalo. Crosby wears 87 because he was born on August 7, 1987 and I was born on August 7, 1993. It's a special number to me for that reason. Even though college hockey players don't get to choose what number they wear, number 3 is still a lucky number for me.  I've gotten to know the player who wears it a tiny bit and always watch him when he is out on the ice. Once he goes pro I will for sure keep tabs on him and his new jersey number.

I do believe in luck just like I believe in fate and when I find a four leaf clover I try to keep it intact or put it in one of my frisbee cleat when I play so I'll have a good game.

I HAVE A TUMBLR ACCOUNT!!!

http://dreamer2087.tumblr.com/

54. What effect does music have on you?

Music has a huge effect on me in so many ways. Whatever mood I am in I always find a song or songs to fit my mood. When I'm happy I will listen to a lot of rock, pop or U93 the local radio station that plays the top hits. When I'm sad I listen to a lot of John Mayer, Maroon 5, or a mix of sad songs that I have. When I'm angry I listen to a lot of loud music. On my way to Ultimate Frisbee I listen to a mix I made of songs to get me pumped up for the games that night. My life has been a bit rough in the last few months so there are a lot of songs that I can't listen to because they remind me of what has happened or they remind me of people. When I'm driving my convertible I love to turn the music up and just drive not having a care in the world if people stare at me. To me, driving and listening to loud music is like therapy and I can forget about a lot of stuff.  I've never been one for country music but I love Knee Deep by Zac Brown Band and I Want Crazy by Hunter Hays. Knee Deep is one of those songs that make me feel better and I don't have to have a care in the world sometimes.

Right now I've been listening to both Mumford & Sons albums, The 20/20 Experience by Justin Timberlake, Pompeii by Bastille, Say Something by A Great Big World, and my two favorite songs Love Don't Die by The Fray and How I Feel by Flo Rida.

I start Ultimate Frisbee this week so my pump up mix will be playing a lot.
Here is the mix:
Throwdown- Pillar
Smack Down- Thousand Foot Krutch
Bleed It Out- Linkin Park
Play Hard- David Guetta
Let It Rock- Kevin Rudolf
Remember the Name- Fort Minor
Not Afraid- Eminem
For The Love of The Game- Pillar
Headstrong- Trapt
Someday- Flipsyde
Light Up the Sky- Thousand Foot Krutch
The Pretender- Foo Fighters (my favorite song)
Eye of The Tiger- Survivor
Fire It Up- TFK
Not Without A Fight- Pillar
Know Your Enemy- Green Day

Music means a lot to me and it has the ability to get me through almost everything.

Love Don't Die music video!

25. Describe a time you felt alone

As I sit in my bed with the rain falling outside I am in tears. I don't exactly know why but I think I know part of the reason. I had an awesome day helping out at an Ultimate Frisbee tournament taping people's injuries, helping set up and take down the fields, and taking in the action. Late in the day I got cold and a friend of my gave me his jacket which was really warm. When I got home I yelled at my dad for always being in a shitty mood and being disrespectful. I don't regret half the stuff I say and forgiveness doesn't come easily unless I have known you for a long time or embraced you as a friend early on.
So why I feel alone. Going to be straight up honest here: I have no friends my own age, I don't know why I'm still in college, I don't know why I'm still in this town, I don't know what I want in life and I have a crush on a guy who doesn't even know my name. All I do know is that music, hockey, writing, and Ultimate Frisbee players are my only comforts in life. I do realize there are probably people who have had similar problems and I want to know how they go through. I have trust issues with people partly because I have a fear of getting hurt like I did in middle school ( I was bullied at bit).
 All I want is to be happy and if that means changing who I am and forgetting about certain people in my life so be it. If I had a job and the money I would leave home and begin a new life where no one knew me. There are things that would  be unfinished and left unsaid but isn't that part of life? Before I'd leave I would tell that one person I love that I love them even if they don't love me back, That's one thing that would not go unsaid.
So I guess you could say I've been alone for sometime now. I'm not depressed, I do have moments  of happiness like I did today but they don't come that often. I'd be happy if I could live the life I dream of: being free and on my own in a city where no one knows me or my past. When I think about this there are two songs that come to mind, Boston by Augustana and The Reckless and The Brave by All Time Low. If you've heard either of these songs you understand why they fit my situation.
I realized I used to word know a lot. ha

80. Thunderstorms… Inspiring or scary?

When I was a little kid I was deathly afraid of thunderstorms. I would hide under my blankets and plug my ears so I wouldn't hear the thunder. I don't remember how old I was but there was a tornado warning for the town I live in and I went to the basement with my dad and the dogs. My mom didn't think it was that big of a deal and stayed upstairs. The power flickered but didn't go out and I peaked at the window across from the basement door and it was a mess outside. Once the storm passed we came upstairs and looked out at the backyard. The yard was a mess and branches and leaves were everywhere. We turned on the news and found out that there was indeed a tornado but it had missed our street and hit the next one a few miles away. The next morning we surveyed the damage and found a trees and been knocked down and the area by the lake was a mess of branches. My dad also found a few of the shingles that had been ripped off the house. That experience made me more afraid of thunderstorms but I was just thankful to be alive.

I think I was about 15 or 16 when there was another bad thunderstorm. There wasn't a tornado but this time the power did go out. My mom and I stayed at my grandpa's house as I was making my Profession of Faith in church that Sunday. Eventually the power got restored and we went back home. There was a lot of damage around the city and trees were blocking some of the roads. I even saw a tree that had landed on a house. Back at home there wasn't much damage except for a tree that fell on our driveway.

When I was little I was afraid of thunderstorms but as I got older that fear lessened. Now I sit outside and watch the lightning if the storm isn't bad. If there is a severe thunderstorm in the middle of the night I will turn of the TV to make sure there isn't a tornado warning and keep it on until the storm is gone. As a little kid thunderstorms were scary but now they are inspiring. Thunderstorms and tornadoes are the raw power of nature and even though we are tempted to watch them it's better to stay safe.

72. If you had only one wish, what would you wish for?

If I had one wish I would wish to be happy. The last time I was truly happy was when I was at a Notre Dame hockey game. It was the championship game of the CCHA and I was down at the glass watching the players skate around. My favorite player noticed me and my heart skipped a beat. It wasn't a home game so I was a bit surprised he had seen me. Being at the hockey games is the only time I feel happy. Being surrounded by hockey fans is a gift and I don't feel ashamed at yelling at the players or officials. After a weekend of games, Sunday morning my voice is usually hoarse from yelling and cheering. I'm not exactly sure why hockey makes me happy but I think part of it is being around the players. Twice during the season there were skates with them after a game and I went and skated with them. I think another reason why hockey makes me happy is the atmosphere of Notre Dame. Everyone is so friendly and there is so much that the team does to give back to the community like the skates, teddy bear toss, and jersey auctions to raise money. I feel home when I go to the Compton Family Ice Arena and that's what makes me happy.

I wish to be happy because I'm usually stressed or upset about something. I feel like something is missing from my life but I can't figure out what it is.

I know this is a short post and I haven't posted in a LONG time but I promise to write more now that I'm done with school.

my song :)

2. What 5 websites do you visit often, and why?

So I'm a huge sports fan and the only channels my TV sees are the ESPN channels, NBC Sports Network and the NHL Network. It's no question that the websites I visit are the same way. In no particular order these are the five websites I visit often.

ESPN.com: What's not to love about this website?! It's got everything I need for all the sports I love and it keeps me up to date with everything. I usually visit for breaking news, rumors, and highlights of soccer matches.

NHL.com: I'm a hockey fan more than any other sport and I visit this website everyday. I get my latest news and highlights of all the games. The lockout was one of the most frustrating things for a hockey fan and I was about ready to give up hope that there was going to be a season.

penguins.nhl.com: The website of the Pittsburgh Penguins. It gives me all the latest news about the team and I love reading the Penguins Report on game day. One of the features I love about this website is all the inside content about the team everything from game highlights to interviews and the excellent behind the scenes video series called Inside The Room. It's basically my stop for all things Penguins related. :)

und.com/sports/m-hockey: The website for all things Notre Dame Hockey. One of the things I love about this site is the the reports for the weekend games. It gets me ready by giving all the stats and what to expect from the other team. I also love reading the articles about the team and watching the videos of the highlights. Since I have season tickets I know all the players by number and I really just love watching the action.

MSN.foxsports.com: I don't visit this website as often as I do the other ones but still it gives me the info on what I'm looking for. I go here for tennis info and updates on Rafael Nadal, my favorite tennis player. This is also my favorite website for all things soccer related. I bounce from here to ESPN for soccer but I like this site better. I love the English Premier League but my favorite team is Barcelona. Yes of course I love Messi!

I visit more websites that these five including youtube, MLSsoccer and theahl.com.

I think I am a bit obsessed with sports and I'm not your typical girl who likes all the celebrity stuff and fashion. I'm an athlete of a sport that many people don't know about yet but it is gaining popularity. I play Ultimate Frisbee and I love it. I've been around sports all my life. My grandpa is a big Michigan fan and I grew up watching NASCAR because my dad and brother would watch it. My love of hockey started when I was a little kid watching the Mighty Ducks movies. :)

79. Describe your first car

Days before I started college I got my licence. I'm embarrassed to say this but I failed my drivers test twice and on the third try I passed. I actually got my car before I got my licence. My dad and I were driving up to Watervliet, Michigan so I could practice on a driving course up there. I saw the car on the way up there and on the way back my dad pulled over so I could take a look. The car was a 1994 Mustang convertible and it looked like it was in good condition. I put the two phone numbers into my phone and when we go home we called the people up. They gave us more information and we put an offer in. There was already another offer on it and the guy was getting his financial information together. We went back a few days later and took it for a test drive and it drove great. A few days after that we got the call that the other guy didn't get his financial information together so we got the car for $4,000. I was quite happy that we got it because my dream car has always been a Mustang.  The money came from my grandma who had gave my parents money for school or anything and they used it to buy my car. After I got my licence I drove the Mustang with the roof down to school with my music blaring. I looked like a bad ass teenage with my sunglasses on and my music blaring. :)  I had started school on a Thursday so I drove it Friday and to church on Sunday.

On the way to church I noticed my speedometer had stopped working and I freaked out. My dad was right behind me in his truck so we switched cars and he drove the Mustang the rest of the way. The problem ended up being something to do with a box in the trunk and my dad was able to order a new one.  Another problem that my car was having was whenever I would turn the wheel while the car was in park the front would be very squeaky. We took the car in and it was something to do with the rod in front and one of the bearings by the wheel. The car also needed new tires and the total bill for everything was over $1,000. After all the work that was done on my car it now runs perfectly fine. 

I take really good care of my car and I wash it often keeping it nice and shiny. It usually takes me two hours to wash, wax, clean the tires and wheels, and do the interior. I always ride with the roof down as I enjoy the thrill of the wind in my hair. I can't drive it in the winter because it's a convertible and it doesn't ride well on snow covered roads. It only holds ten gallons of gas so I have to fill it up every week and a half.  I have really sharp eyes and if it wasn't for me seeing the car on the side of the road I wouldn't have my own car today. 

Here is a picture of it. I've never seen a Mustang this color but I have see some with white roofs like mine has.  

It's not even close to my dream Mustang which is this one but I'm still happy.